Well, here I go again. I think all I do is pack these days...or think about packing...or travel with a pack. You know, I think I'd like to be able to fit everything I own in a suitcase. Packing would be so easy! Why am I so materialistic? Things are just...things. They don't really matter. I may say that now, but if you asked me to pick 10 shirts and give the rest away I'd run around my room like a chicken with its head cut off.
After spending almost one full month back in America, I miss traveling. I miss feeling like I can simply go out and offer a helping hand without having to worry about lawsuits and technicalities. Europe was a nice escape from the "real" world and yet, I experienced more of the "real" world than I ever had before. I'm swarmed with decisions here and it's overwhelming. I KNOW that God provides and He delivers. I've experienced both, but it just seems so much more real when He's the only one I have to communicate with. I miss being alone. I miss being able to simply walk wherever I needed to go. I miss those days when I sat next to the Vltava River and watched the sun set just beyond the castle. I miss feeling God. I knew that He was with me. I knew that regardless of what happened, my travel plans would be just as He wanted them. Yes, I know the same concept applies here, but it was far more tangible when foreign languages surrounded me.
I suppose as I prepare to venture off the Puerto Rico, I find comfort in the fact that there will be a language barrier, a place willing to let me help, people who may be lost and in need of something I can give them. Maybe I just need to accept being that weird person. Maybe I really need to simply take a stand and not grow comfortable at work or at school. I should ALWAYS be a witness. After living in the "world" for a while, I think I am better able to see how to live amongst people, but not of them. So why do I not do that in my own country?
Well, as I ponder, I pack. I pray God will bless this trip and this experience.
Well, as I ponder, I pack. I pray God will bless this trip and this experience.
Prayer Requests:
- Travel Safety-I think I'm more afraid to travel in America than I was in Europe...
- Smooth training camp-all the plans and what not will go smoothly
- Team Unity-most of the people on the trip already know each other or have met, so hopefully I can just come in and we'll all be a happy family
- Effectiveness-our construction, friendly discussions, and camp activities will truly spread the gospel
- This will be the beginning-That each member will continue to serve in the years to come, that this will be the start of a new passion in each member to share and serve in whatever way God calls
I will pray for your list Becca. I also understand your feelings a great deal, and don't think you're weird at all. As a matter of fact, there are a number of us out there. I think it would be good to look at it carefully to see if the Lord is calling you to work in fields overseas. But also, look at where you can grow here. America is in so many ways a foreign country to me, where people are speaking a different language. So, approach it as you would a new nation. With the same broken hearts behind different facades. Strategize! : ) Helps me. : )But again, it may be that your heart is being tugged further afield. I am excited about the work being wrought in you. You are clearly being prepared and are already beginning what God has for you. It is inspiring. I am truly enjoying my seat.
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